I am not sure I have the right words to describe how I am feeling/doing/acting right now. We are two weeks into a home quarantine because of the coronavirus. I definitely am having a lot of feelings, but no words seem to encapsulate the depth and breadth of my experience.
Here’s some words that might be skirting around The Truth:
oscillate
waver
waves
grief
discomfort
unreal
melancholy
hope
action
despair
enjoyment
love
revel
luxuriate
leisure
hurried
anxious
No matter though. I now can’t remember where I read this, but one day last week I read, “Emotions need motion.” And so, while it’s difficult to pinpoint WHAT I am feeling. I am now focusing on HOW and WHERE I am feeling it and letting it pass through me. It’s a little uncomfortable at first to let it all wash over me at once, but once the moment passes I feel free of it. So I wanted to pass on this nugget to anyone who happens by this random corner of the internet, because giving your motions some space for movement will help! Promise.